I’ve been very ill for quite some time now. Today is the first day I’ve been able to sit in my desk chair and update the Blog.
I won’t bore you with the details of what illness’s have moved through my body. The most critical condition right now is my back. For anyone that understands a little bit of back conditions, L4 & L5 have crushed together with S1 wedged between them. Suffice to say the pain from my back is off the charts.
The weather here in AZ is beautiful and I try to get out to soak in some of the healing sun. If I do anything during a day it is going out to dinner. That is my biggest diversion and I enjoy the people enormously.
That’s it for now, the pain has gotten to bad to sit.
First: I’m going to be adding more pictures and video to the blog. You can expect to see a gallery of pictures and even video. If I can get some low wind days I’ll add video from my Drone.
Second: I’m going to start linking to my Twitter and Instagram accounts.
Third: I’m going to change the look of the blog.
I had a very bad Pancreatic attack on Thursday. Evidently I was moaning so loud that an anonymous person called 911. A medic unit showed-up at the house. I had to get up, show them my DNR and tell them to leave. This was my worst fear come true and I was able to handle it. I wish the person who called 911 had just come over to check on me.
On Thursday, Jeff was out shopping and Charlie need to go out. I took him and he dragged me down the stairs and into the street. By the time I got control of him I was hurt on my left side. I went to the doctor and he ordered x-rays. Charlie had compressed the S-1 Nerve solidly between L-4 and L-5.
It’s that time of year when we can either look back on the year that was or look forward on the year to come. Looking forward the big events I’m looking forward to are: our wedding, an additional form of pain management, making this Blog look more “professional,” keeping my medical conditions under control, taking a honeymoon cruise with Jeff, always enjoying the love of my life Jeff, selling our previous home and, making some improvements to our home. That should keep me/us busy. I’m sure we’ll add or delete things but the bottom line is that I LOVE JEFF! There will never be a way to say how much I appreciate all that he was, is, and will be. Jeff is the rock that keeps me alive and going.
Today is the anniversary of my Father’s passing. He would be appalled if he knew the state his family had formed.
I also received the final report on x-rays of my Lumbar Spine. In non technical terms, I have bone on bone between disc L5 and S1. This means that I have bone on bone between the last disc and the Sciatic nerve bundle. The reason I thought I broke my tailbone is because the condition is getting worse. Eventually I lose the ability to use my left leg. There is a surgical procedure that can try and fix it but because mine is bilateral (right to left) the chances of success are very low.
With that I say good night and hope for a better day tomorrow.
Through early morning fog I see visions of the things to be the pains that are withheld for me I realize and I can see…
that suicide is painless it brings on many changes and I can take or leave it if I please. I try to find a way to make all our little joys relate without that ever-present hate but now I know that it’s too late, and…
The game of life is hard to play I’m gonna lose it anyway The losing card I’ll someday lay so this is all I have to say. The only way to win is cheat And lay it down before I’m beat and to another give my seat for that’s the only painless feat.
The sword of time will pierce our skins It doesn’t hurt when it begins But as it works its way on in The pain grows stronger…watch it grin, but… A brave man once requested me to answer questions that are key is it to be or not to be and I replied ‘oh why ask me?’
Cause suicide is painless it brings on many changes and I can take or leave it if I please. …and you can do the same thing if you please.
All around me people have been ill with some kind of: cold, virus or plague. I’ve been proud of myself for avoiding it; until today. My joints hurt, throat sore, congested nose, etc. Today is a minus day. I will not miss Thanksgiving. My Sister-in-Law and my Nephew are coming for a visit. I will not miss them.
I’m taking it slow today and send my best to all for a Happy Thanksgiving.
I got to see my doctor and he gave me Kenalog (cortisone) shots in my knees. I’ll hurt from the injections for 2 days but Ibuprofen should take care of the needle pain. Overall today is a plus day. My Pancreas is going to atrophy according to the doctor. He said that once that process is complete, life will not be very pleasant.
The good news is that we have water. The bad news is that the Internet is down. I continue to assert that the infrastructure of Gold Canyon RV & Golf Resort is falling apart. The “Resort” is over 25 years old and other than replacing bits and pieces, there has been no substantial work done to update the infrastructure. Four hours later the Internet was available.
I’m also finding that people were my friends as long as I had a “positive” attitude about the “Park” but want nothing to do with me when I speak the truth. Believe it or not, Facebook has caused me to lose friends. Because I took the action of removing all the members of the “Park” from my Facebook page, they no longer want anything to do with me (how petty).
Because of all of the above I’m in excruciating pain! My pain level is 10 and I’m quickly losing the will to live.
Today marks the 6th day we’ve had no water for a period of time. We received a notice saying the water would be out at 9:00 AM. We received the message at 9:20 AM. Fortunately the outage was short.Gold Canyon RV & Golf Resort has never acknowledged any wrongdoing in this six day process, and, as far as I know, never brought in a professional company to fix it.
I had 2 very severe Pancreatitis attacks last night. During the first one my body went completely rigid and in addition to the Pancreatic (10+) pain I had cramps throughout my body. Fortunately the second attack wasn’t as bad and I was able to fall asleep afterwords.
I’m still struggling with WordPress (especially themes). If anyone could offer help I’d greatly appreciate it.