It’s that time of year when we can either look back on the year that was or look forward on the year to come. Looking forward the big events I’m looking forward to are: our wedding, an additional form of pain management, making this Blog look more “professional,” keeping my medical conditions under control, taking a honeymoon cruise with Jeff, always enjoying the love of my life Jeff, selling our previous home and, making some improvements to our home. That should keep me/us busy. I’m sure we’ll add or delete things but the bottom line is that I LOVE JEFF! There will never be a way to say how much I appreciate all that he was, is, and will be. Jeff is the rock that keeps me alive and going.
Merry Christmas Eve to all. It’s difficult to believe but we have a water outage, today, of all days. Will all the cooking be finished? Who knows. Our one house is still for sale. Once it sells this one will be listed and we will move.
It feels like Winter out today. The temperature is below 60º and we’ve turned the heat on for the first time. I’m lazing around in layers and Charlie is laying near the the heat register.
The cold temperature sets off every nerve ending I have and it feels like pain. I haven’t posted in a bit because I’m having terrible pain attacks. l spent one whole day sleeping just to avoid the pain.
As for my family; at least they’ve had the decency to stay away. Yes, I miss my Mother but she too was a participant in the group that said, “under no circumstances could she ever forgive my nephews” and then turned around and couldn’t wait to be with them. If you have a principle or moral what reaction should you expect when you violate it?
On the good news side, Charlie has a group of friends that he loves to play with. It’s a site to see other dogs try to flip him when he’s 55 lbs and low to the ground. He’s also taken to sticking his whole head in a container of water and blowing bubbles.
Through early morning fog I see visions of the things to be the pains that are withheld for me I realize and I can see…
that suicide is painless it brings on many changes and I can take or leave it if I please. I try to find a way to make all our little joys relate without that ever-present hate but now I know that it’s too late, and…
The game of life is hard to play I’m gonna lose it anyway The losing card I’ll someday lay so this is all I have to say. The only way to win is cheat And lay it down before I’m beat and to another give my seat for that’s the only painless feat.
The sword of time will pierce our skins It doesn’t hurt when it begins But as it works its way on in The pain grows stronger…watch it grin, but… A brave man once requested me to answer questions that are key is it to be or not to be and I replied ‘oh why ask me?’
Cause suicide is painless it brings on many changes and I can take or leave it if I please. …and you can do the same thing if you please.
Today is a minus day. Thinking of moving to CA for a short time. They have the laws I need.
Sorry for being away so long. I’ve been really sick with everything hitting at once. I’m back on the road to “normal’ for me. Today is a plus day.
We’ve had a water leak at the house for about 2 weeks now. Yesterday it was fixed
It’s amazing that the water lines aren’t that deep. I guess I’m still used to New York where all the lines were 3 feet deep. They also use PVC here – not copper. Hopefully we’ll have move away before the system gives way again.
As for me, the more pain that I have the less I want to live. Yesterday when everything was going wrong I wanted to kill myself. Instead, I did the write thing and got ahold of the doctor. It’s amazing that his advice worked. So, I’m still here struggling but doing the best I can. I treasure our friends – they know me well and don’t take any crap from me
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I’m having a plus day. I’ve “borrowed” this system from my good friend Liz. A plus day means I’m doing the best I can and that given my limitations all is well. A minus day means the opposite of a plus day.
We were able to borrow a friends golf cart and I was able to make the rounds and visit with friends. I forgot to take video but will try and remember the next time. Charlie met his new friend Sam (an 11 month old Golden Retriever. They went in the dog park and had a great time playing. It was so much fun to watch! Sam would try and flip Charlie with his nose and Charlie fit perfectly underneath Sam and would just mess with him.
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It’s UNBELIEVABLE! We actually have all utilities working this morning. I’m so anxious I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop <LOL>.
Yesterday I had an incredibly bad pain day. Today, now that I have all my pills in me my pain level is a 7 and I’m doing okay. I have plans to try and clean-up my desk and go to my favorite website Goulet Pens.I’m a fountain pen fanatic and am always looking to see what the latest pens are. Brian and Rebecca Goulet do a fantastic job and even have a great You Tube channel
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The good news is that we have water. The bad news is that the Internet is down. I continue to assert that the infrastructure of Gold Canyon RV & Golf Resort is falling apart. The “Resort” is over 25 years old and other than replacing bits and pieces, there has been no substantial work done to update the infrastructure. Four hours later the Internet was available.
I’m also finding that people were my friends as long as I had a “positive” attitude about the “Park” but want nothing to do with me when I speak the truth. Believe it or not, Facebook has caused me to lose friends. Because I took the action of removing all the members of the “Park” from my Facebook page, they no longer want anything to do with me (how petty).
Because of all of the above I’m in excruciating pain! My pain level is 10 and I’m quickly losing the will to live.
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Today marks the 6th day we’ve had no water for a period of time. We received a notice saying the water would be out at 9:00 AM. We received the message at 9:20 AM. Fortunately the outage was short.Gold Canyon RV & Golf Resort has never acknowledged any wrongdoing in this six day process, and, as far as I know, never brought in a professional company to fix it.
I had 2 very severe Pancreatitis attacks last night. During the first one my body went completely rigid and in addition to the Pancreatic (10+) pain I had cramps throughout my body. Fortunately the second attack wasn’t as bad and I was able to fall asleep afterwords.
I’m still struggling with WordPress (especially themes). If anyone could offer help I’d greatly appreciate it.
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